I seriously don’t know how to express the feelings I have now for you. But one thing I can say is thank you for all the time I have spent with you. The infinite memories you gave me when you were with me. Thank you so much for the times when you made me forget my worries and persuaded me to enjoy the moment. Thank you for boosting my morale up and letting me know that I was capable of something. Thank you so much for being like a mother, a teacher and a supporter of mine, even when it felt like no one was on my side.
You were my everything once upon a time. Day in and day out, it was only you who I would speak my heart out those days. But now it has become a complete void, it feels like I am stranded in a very deep well. I guess this is how one looks back at Friendships that does not exists.
I wish everyday that it’s all a dream, I hope I’ll wake up in the morning and would see you by my side everyday but then I realize you’re gone for good and I just have to live with that heartache. I just don’t think anything would get normal again anymore. I would feel like I would want to talk to you at times, but my other self would control me from doing that. I don’t know but I have become bipolar now. There are two people inside me now. The arrogant & ferocious me and the Cool & Calm real me. You know that even if I get angry I would just leave that place or would just sit down controlling myself. But nowadays, I am shouting at others and getting into fight with people if I am angry.
When you left, you left with the joyful part of me, that part that laugh, that smile and that the sweetest part of me, now I’m just left with an empty hole that you created in me, I’m left with a sad, angry part of me. You’re missed that is for sure. And you would also know that obviously because you were that close to me. I hope you’ve found what you needed. I wish you the best of everything. I will always love you.
We had some amazing memories. Whenever we had fights, I apologized over and over again just to keep you in my life. But that one important time I could not. I would not. Never. I felt like a fool don’t know why. Nothing was my mistake. But still I ask myself why did you come into my life, why did you give so much sweet memories and why did you leave me with such a bitter memory.
Sometimes, I would feel it was my misunderstanding. But, then I realize No it was not. I miss the us we were before. No one swam the same waters with you like I did and also with me like you did. No one has been and will be more loyal and dedicated to you as I was and as you were to me. No one can replace your place in my life. I will live my life with the imaginary you by my side.
You were the only eager reader of mine who I had, who reads every posts anything and everything. I guess still you are doing that. But I don’t have anyone like you to read and pour me the emotions out of it now. Nowadays without you, It just feels like living around some kind of robots which are designed to carry out their missions and not to care about others feelings or anything happening around.
I am just roaming around the world, acting like a robot in search of a real human among all the robots. I hope, I will not find that you were the only other human left in the world of robots.
I saw this quote one day in social media, ” ஒட்டவும் முடியாமல் ஒதுக்கவும் முடியாமல் சில உறவுகள், நினைக்கவும் முடியாமல் மறக்கவும் முடியாமல் சில நினைவுகள், அழைக்கவும் முடியாமல் அழிக்கவும் முடியாமல் சில எண்கள் எல்லோர் வாழ்விலும் இருக்கத் தான் செய்கிறது. This quote explains my situation perfectly.
I will remember you and will love you till the end. My One and Only Love. Thank You for everything ❤❤